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Fare Thee Well.

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 20:44:44 GMT

Fare thee well, lunatistic_soul.
There is a new livejournal account in my life.
Im sorry.
Things just arent working out.
Its been a good six months,
but I need a change.

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I will be updating here, occasionally, so keep this account on your friends list.

Adios.

PICTURES

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 21:46:46 GMT

I never thought I would see Candace Lester in a creek. O_o

Oooh, a leaf!

Candace is such a child.

So am I.

Weee!

I just love those crazy colors.

For Josh.

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 22:50:40 GMT

When the Curious Girl Realizes She is Under Glass.

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 01:47:20 GMT

Time take us forward,
Relief from this longing,
They can land that plane on my heart,
I don't care.
Just give me November,
The warmth of a whisper
In the freezing darkness of my room.

- Conor Oberst.

sigh

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 22:56:05 GMT

So when time comes to claim me
My friends and my family will gather around my grave
And they'll believe that they knew me and loved me and missed me
And all call me by my name

So imagine what you want
And then hold on to that thought
Cause that's as close as it will ever come
--The Trees all get Wheeled Away, Conor Oberst.

Would you all miss me if I were no longer here?

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 04:21:22 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY K-t!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

<333
Ariana.

The flaming flowers wilt into the sky.

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 19:10:36 GMT

The End.

Sat, 02 Jul 2005 08:05:21 GMT

Facts about me. (cont.)
101. When I was little, I didn't have an imaginary friend; I had an imaginary house.
102. I have been listening to the same two songs for the past hour, now.
103. One is Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
104. The other is I Love You Always and Forever - Dona Lewis.
105. When I was little I loved to eat cold gravy and biscuits.
106. Only two people have called me today.
107. They were Jordan and K-t.
108. I love to edit pictures.
109. The only edited pictures that ever turn out good are ones of myself.
110. There was a rumor going around that Conor Oberst had died.
111. Luckily, it wasnt true.
112. I like to play with fire.
113. My mosquito net is blue with gold moons on it.
114. When I was little I refused to sleep in my room.
115. I get really nervous around guys that I really like.
116. I hate my smile.
117. I also hate my hands.
118. I think I have a fat face.
119. I love the color of my hair.
120. One of the most beautiful things I have ever seen was when I walk home from K-t's after dark and see all the fire-flys Up in the trees and they are all flashing and stuff.
121. I miss how fired-up Chapter 41 used to be.
122. I want to read the book Valley of the Dolls
123. Seeing yellow roses makes me want to sob.
124. I hate the fact that I can never thing of anything to say when I am around some people.
125. Im too tired to think of any more facts.

Damn Insomnia and Bandwagons.

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 09:41:30 GMT

1. My favorite soda is Cherry Coke or Root Beer.
2. I have never dyed my hair.
3. I often sneak out of my house late at night and wander around town.
4. I can never wear fingernail polish very long because I end up chewing it off.
5. I love taking pictures of things even though I dont do a good job.
6. I usually have very interesting thoughts, Im just never able to get them out of my head and into words or onto paper.
7. I often die or physically injure myself in my dreams.
8. I can sleep with my eyes open.
9. I have never met my father.
10. Until just recently I never wanted to.
11. Thats too bad for me, though, because he is dead.
12. My favorite number is 6.
13. I think best while sitting in the shower.
14. I have no idea what I want in a guy, and I suppose thats why I keep ending up with the wrong ones.
15. I have never lived in the same house for more than a year.
16. I have always lived in this area.
17. I am in love with Conor Oberst's voice.
18. I would fall in 'love' with a guy if they sang 'Iris,' 'First Day of My Life,' or 'Tereza and Tomas' to me.
19. My favorite movies are usually horror flicks or romantic comedies.
20. I love chokers and corsets.
21. My bedroom is fashioned off of a room in the movie 'Cruel Intentions.'
22. I would kill for a relationship that would last for more than a month.
23. I cant for the life of me get one to work.
24. I over-react about everything.
25. I will not do anything useful (housework, chores, etc.) unless I am told to.
26. There isnt an initiative bone in my body.
27. My best friends live more than 500 miles away.
28. I love Canadians.
29. I was once labeled "gothic" by my peers.
30. I have no sense of time or direction.
31. I am addicted to internet.
32. Every guy I have dated has gotten tired of me within a month.
33. When I am hyper, I am very loud and random.
34. Most of the time I am very mellow.
35. I am a walking contradiction.
36. I am vey loyal to everyone that is on my good side.
37. I have low self esteem.
28. I am emotionally unstable most of the time.
29. My favorite article of clothing is my trench coat.
30. The song 'Haligh Haligh, a Lie, Haligh' by Bright Eyes somehow fits into what is going on in my life at all times.
31. It is my favorite song.
32. Whitney Barton and I used to be the best of friends.
33. Now we cant stand each other.
34. High school was invented to tear friendships apart.
35. I am not close friends with a single person that I was close to a year ago.
36. I want to go to Europe after high school and before college.
37. I want to get married on the beach at sunset.
38. I love to sing, but I only do it when no one can hear me. I have been known to get off the phone with someone just so I can sing and not be heard.
39. I can walk anywhere I need to go.
40. I have been accused of being anorexic.
41. I have also been accused of being a Satanist, by my own family.
42. I am a member of Southside Baptist Church and Chapter 41.
43. I like to edit photos.
44. I am very creative, but I am not good at expressing my creativity.
45. I have no idea what I want out of life.
46. My favorite television show is Invader Zim.
47. Gir is the best cartoon evar.
48. I have a 'Chick-fil-A' cow above my computer.
49. I also have a medieval torture device.
50. Indie is my favorite genre of music.
51. I cant let any part of my body hang off my bed while I sleep. It creeps me out; Im afraid something might grab me.
52. I like to take pictures of myself.
53. I tend to hold grudges for quite a long time.
54. I keep my memories in Converse boxes and sketch notebooks.
55. I like to walk in the rain.
56. I think Conor Oberst is the sexiest thing in the world.
57. 'Iris' by the Goo Goo Dolls makes me cry; so does 'Easy/Lucky/Free' by Bright Eyes.
58. I often let the good things pass me by.
59. I wish I werent always so insecure.
60. I cant give advice worth a damn, but if you need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to rant to, Im always here.
61. 'Love Rhymes with a Hideous Car Wreck' by the Blood Brothers makes me very happy; so does 'Slit Wrist Theory' - 36 Crazy Fists.
62. Sometimes I think I suffer from depression, other times insanity.
63. I adore Tim Burton films.
64. The only member of my family that I have a real relationship with is my Aunt Eva.
65. I am a chocoholic.
66. Reese Cups are my true love.
67. I have never been outside of the United States.
68. I prefer cats to dogs as pets.
69. I love the movie 'Nightmare Before Christmas.'
70. My favorite Stephen King novel is 'Salems Lot; it was also the first one I read.
71. Reading the Bible confuses me.
72. I have a hard time speaking to people Im not familiar with.
73. I dont like being in groups of people; I prefer to work alone.
74. I like night-time more than day-time.
75. I have a guitar that I have never learned to play.
76. I hate sports.
77. I love high school football games.
78. I like candles.
79. I dont like to think, because when I do I usually end up worrying.
80. Ville Valo, John Lennon, and Jack Skellington are hanging on my walls.
81. Im having a hard time concentrating on things at the moment.
82. I have never did any sort of illegal drug.
83. I have never drank alcohol, and I dont plan on it.
84. I wonder sometimes if things look the same to me as they do to everyone else.
85. I cant multi-task.
86. The first and only pair of sunglasses I own are orange.
87. I hate the color orange, but I love my sunglasses.
88. My favorite color is crimson or blue.
89. People take out their anger on me because I am skinny.
90. Someone called me a 'pixie' once; I thought it was the coolest thing anyone had ever called me.
91. They meant it to be insulting.
92. The days I miss most are when Whit and I hung out at the arcade alot.
93. I enjoy putting graffitti on picnic tables.
94. I plan to spend one night this summer at City Hall.
95. I know that no one is going to take the time to read this.
96. I also know that I have just wasted a small portion of my life.
97. Politics confuse me.
98. But I know that I do not like George Bush.
99. I use 'Love Spell' body spray by Victoria Secret.
100. I like to be treated like I am special.

Haligh, Haligh, A Lie, Haligh.

Fri, 06 May 2005 03:43:55 GMT

"Haligh, Haligh, A Lie, Haligh"

The phone slips from a loose grip
Words were missed then, some apology
I didn’t want to tell you this
No, it’s just some guy she's been hanging out with
I don’t know, the past couple weeks I guess
Well, thank you and hang up the phone
Let the funeral start
Hear the casket close
Let’s pin split-black ribbon to your overcoat
Well, laughter pours from under doors
In this house, I don’t understand that sound no more
It seems artificial, like a T.V. set

Well, haligh, haligh, a lie, haligh
This weight it must be satisfied
You offer only one reply
You know not what you do
But you tear and tear your hair from roots
From that same head you have twice removed now
A lock of hair you said would prove
Our love would never die
Well ha ha ha

I remember everything
The words we spoke on freezing South Street
And all those mornings watching you get ready for school
You combed your hair inside that mirror
The one you painted blue and glued with jewelry tears
Something about those bright colors
would always make you feel better
But now we speak with ruined tongues
And the words we say aren’t meant for anyone
It’s just a mumbled sentence to a passing acquaintance
But there was once you

You said you hate my suffering
And you understood
And you’d take care of me
You'd always be there
Well where are you now?

Haligh, haligh, a lie, haligh
The plans were never finalized
But left to hang like yarn and twine
Dangling before my eyes
As you tear and tear your hair from roots
From that same head you have twice removed now
A lock of hair you said would prove
Our love would never die

And I sing and sing of awful things
The pleasure that my sadness brings
As my fingers press onto the strings
In yet another clumsy chord
Haligh, haligh, an awful lie
This weight will now be satisfied
I'm gonna give you only one reply
I know not who I am

But I talk in the mirror
To the stranger that appears
Our conversations are circles
Always one sided
Nothing is clear

Except we keep coming back
To this meaning that I lack
He says the choices were given
Now you must live them
Or just not live
But do you want that?

I heart Conor Oberst. <3